You said something today that made me think. You asked me if I was happy and honestly i didn't know what to say. I wonder if anybody's actually really happy with their life, and i know while most people would say no, i just want to know that there's actually hope that some people are happy just happy and happy. But maybe thats not real. Then again, what is real. I'm so tired, tired of having to live up to people's expectations, tired of doing whats right instead of doing what i want to, tired of all the disappointment. Maybe whats the best for me isn't what i want. I have no idea where my life is going, I can't even see myself being alive in 10 years. I want to be a kambing/kucing/lembu/kuda, no idea why i just think animal are ok cool. I need to be happy cause happy girls are the prettiest. Just look around you anywhere. Happy people are the prettiest so maybe thats why kids are just so lovely. I need more sleep cause lack of sleep is making me feeling so ugh every morning. Sleep makes people happier because they forget everything for a while, cause when you sleep you're not sad, angry or lonely you're nothing. Everybody tell everybody else to be strong but how do they actually do that when being strong is just as hard as trying but failing. Ok i should stop lying to people since i never do keep my promise.I don't know you anymore and that's okay.
"if you feel good then fuck the others."

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