(i'm in school and everybody just studying really attentively and just pls teach me how to not be distracted every minute)

1. encouraging peers handing out notes and sweets??? thank you for making me happy

2. finally had my carrot cake muffin from bux!!! (can you believe my love for carrot cakes now give how much i didn't like it when i was younger) also naim gave partner discount much appreciated so nice even though i probably will not be a partner :') very grateful ok (stop making me feel bad guyss)

3. mx hasn't left!! so can you see my glowing heart filled with happiness - he really really lights my life like a ball of sunshine and he reminds me of zk but in a different way (i am consciously aware that i am infatuated, but pls let me be pls i controlling myself)

4. heavenly wang at airport has been relatively empty and i really enjoy the seats and when the uncle makes me a good cup of yuan yang :') (also there weren't the three musketeers yesterday #xiaosad)

5. my sister is back and i miss her so much and i promise i wont be angry at her if she doesn't spend time with me this time

6. i got B+ and A- for my pol space assignments!!!! many doubts but thanks prof woon :) is it weird if i feel contented with my assignment grades because i felt so much ambivalence and uncertainty when i was doing the assignment so

7. baba told me about her childhood and it made me miss ahbib, and how he used to tell bedtime stories, i know i'm 20 but i'm such a shit grandaughter to my grandparents  

8. i really like how s friends made attempts to include me even though i only met them like 3 times but like they call me fuzzy - like i feel closer to them then than i do to nus people who i see on a daily basis also miss rj even if he is devil spawn because he + s = entertainment cuties HAHA

9. miss singing with s and i'm thankful for her (even though im the shit friend who doesnt keeep in touch)

10. malay 4 made me miss msp and cikgu m, but thankful for cikgu a and the 4 other kawan-kawan - thank you for accepting my flaws in being a shit malay speaker especially during project presentation 

11. david archuleta new song makes me so happy!!!! ugh i love old songs

12. was at esplanade library on thursday i think and like after 4 hours i packed and tried to do some readings at the outdoor theatre because rain and windy and ugh it was so beautiful and calming (until swarms of tourist came but it was very entertaining watching them take pictures pls tell me i don't look like that when i am on holiday and that the locals dont laugh on me)

13. also on the way home after that, there was this duo having a performance at the concourse and they just sound so good!!! and they were doing songs from the past (plus) which included boyband songs (extra plus) it made my train ride home real happy :')

14. i also really loved the discussion that tj baes had about trump vs clinton and i just feel very disconnected from singapore politics but at least thats democracy??? (unlike a certain PE with only malay candidates)

15. why is race an issue today?????? i just dont get it - why is race still an issue, are we not all human, why must we divide people???? why cant we all just be considered singaporeans?? why is there a need for people to havef an allegiance based on their skin colour or blood

16. rain makes me so happy like cute boys i need to stop

17. fear for my lit assignment but also thankful that teck gave me A??? like do i deserve it, but also thank you for reigniting my love for lit and rememberances of tj lit - even though this mod is a bit heavy, i'm thankful i took this instead of english language

18. this sem i felt alone but not lonely like i didn't take many common mods with j and k but really very thankful for our tuesdays lunch (on days where i turn up for lectures) and for holding onto he friendship 

19. i feel like breaking under the amount of individual work i had to do but it is ok (i really cannot decide if i prefer group work or not)

20. i hope prelims go well next year and i hope i dont screw it up 

21. need to go on a caffiene and boy break ok and focus on myself

thank you allah for getting me through this hell of a semester