i am a stubborn lump of flesh

listen to only what my insides say

not pausing to think if

the choice was a stupid one or

is it human to be so selfish

or am i unable to give more 

because i am "just a child"

as you like to say

a better person i wanted to be

but i turned into your 

worst nightmare, one that makes you 

wake up in the middle of the night 

shivering

there's a lot of things i know i shouldn't do - but i still do.

/sigh/ let me go back to life and death and figure out what my existence on earth as a member of the world population is

need to stop thinking about you and how you made me smile with your cheeky antics; this is very detrimental to my heart (i don't need a boy to make me feel better)
did you change
or
did i not know you