it has been forever since my last post and it's half a year into 2017 so hello here are reflections on what my life is

january - didn't get a place for exchange in y3s1 felt miserable af cause all i wanted was to get away from this hell hole in singapore i took 6 modules and a leap of faith by applying for ync module and wow awkward as hell cause nobody wanted to sit with me (which was fine by me i didn't need no company from the locals or exchange student???) /
sent r off and i hope he's fine and ok in uk and that he's not sick anymore i'm a shit friend eh /
guess it was nice that i got close to hh seeing how we're the only 2 in class and i love small non awkward classes and how we managed to push ourselves to improve our malay

february - k left for germany and i just felt that i had one less friend that i wanted to see here, also trying to like deal with gcoc this month made me want to stab myself cause they kept giving things last minute, and ugh i was so annoyed with the 3 of them on d day itself especially w because ugh he did no shit and i was stress enough that my sister was leaving at night /
also did not manage to apply for exchange in y3s2 sigh cause recess week was me trying to complete my assignments deal with last minute gc stuff and finding ideas for my multimedia assignment /
think this was the month where i learnt sign language and i really really loved it lah i don't remember anything else besides finger spelling so /
also it was career fair day in school this month and i just felt a whole lot of uncertain on what i wanted to be cry /
climbed bt for the first time and i wanted to die - the hill is real and i am dying

march - realised what a slob the whole nation is when they overflow thrash can and leave their litter around ugh /
was also the month where i spent a lot of time at esplanade underpass talking to strangers and like taking pictures of them i was incredibly awkward but i am incredibly grateful for the experience prof t and i thank you for seeing my efforts by giving me an A- HAHA

april - my attempt at trying to do spwm was bad cause i lost momentum after the first week also all my poems are like shallow and surface i cannot dig deep /
also went korea over the easter and ugh fml i miss it so bad!!!! the weather the food the culture!!!! thought going away with my sis would be ok but she paranoid af idkw and we both had exams after that so we had to study (can i also say i wanted to order cold brew latte in singapore then the bitch of starbucks barista laughed at me i sad) so we did and tbh would i still have gone knowing that i had essays/projects/exams - yes i wasn't very productive but i tried /
ugH at the GEM module which i loved so much but which i got a B- in (and which i will never know my grade for my IE which i paid $20 to watch TWCT and spent forever doing it) because of the lack of group dynamics in a group that was put together slipshod and which there were no full attendence during tutorial /
back to korea i wished i took more pics but it was cold and bag was heavy from laptop and it rained a lot and i was lazy and i just wanted to like take it easy by not being a tourist but wtf stayed in a hotel sigh but i would definitely go back again!!!!!!!!! also new found love is day6 many ai for them

may - spent the first two weeks trying to tidy (not very successful) and job search and i am v thankful that i applied to pff because i could have been still at home wasting my life and compared to j and b (interns) my skills that i learn may not be transferable in the future but i still really like what i'm doing even though i not doing much but yah also much respect for k and f who like really put their heart into their business and that they actually listen and consider feedback from us

june - is my birthday month and ugh i dont want to turn 21 aka legal adult and idgw people throw 21st birthday party because like wow u welcoming ur adulthood by wasting money!!!!! fun yay i don't know what to expect and i don't want to expect anything /
thinking of taking loa so i can dont go to school but i'm not sure if thats what i want

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