of you (all) telling me what to do i really really am

i am very tired i am tired of so many things,
it's not that i haven't heard this before
i have - all my life i have been told
that i was too fat;  that if i stopped
snacking and started exercising
i would be skinny that i would
be pretty. i tried but my resolve was
weak.why did i have to make myself
suffer
to live up to society's expectation
of women? why was big not beautiful
was 'plus' only useful in calculating
was having too much of me
too much for the world?

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