wow am 23 - can you believe because I can't

thankful for:
parents for still loving me and trying to show it
tk baes for still loving me and trying to show it
tj baes for remembering
jojo and friends for the song

i have graduated from university - my 4 years in nus geography is over and
i am thankful for profs which bore my shitty work and for groupmates that bore my shitty self

i tried and that's what important right?
 (am actually being very hard on myself but pls understand that i can but i also love myself)

read most of my old blog post and to be honest i have no idea 3/4 of the events or people i am talking about (like who is this person i am infatuate with????? are they just an alphabet)

but ok

half of 2019 is gone so maybe a brief recap

jan:
- sreytoch came for a few days (i spent $70  to be her personal photographer at uss)
- spent the first day of 2019 with tj baes just hanging around tamp
- honours mod chaos cause i didn't even get my mods and me thinking if i would even be able to graduate
- also decided to take 3 electives because last sem best sem right? (the sem was hell and i didn't know it because langauge and yale nus mods - clearly overestimated my ability)
- month of csda frenzy cause DI just came back
- celebrated loveena's birthday at the beach (+ dorcky cause she was back!!) - was awkward cause her tj friends were there??? but also s/j were cute

feb:
- social practice art got me like eh????
- cha eunwoo (what a qt)
- k's bapa passed away and i felt quite bad because i only attended one maulid )-: (and she has to deal with her mom citizenship issue and fyp)
- started selling my clothes on carousell cause i was trying to get into the reduce reuse recycle 
- went tanjong kupang to visit kelab alami for spa field trip and to see boys younger than me doing so much more made me question my university education // also climbed an almost vertical hill and almost wanted to die and rip shoes
- more csda frenzy and school assignment rush = me trying not to die
mar:
- first art critique - was a mess but in awe of what others did
- also me worrying about spa project because i was like idk wtf i should be doing
- nusgc2019 proud of friends (jo/rm) for handling grand finals ri didn't win i think?
- had tv and radio recordings for chinese and oh god i hope i was an ok mess but i just hate self)
- finally ended csda intern - thankful that i still got to use the room before it got handed over
- csda was shiz but thankful for all the people i met along the way :""")
- had time for self love by going to the museum and watching dumbo
- end of the month was also when i became full bts trash like wow i don't think i ever loved 7 boys this hard (took me a week to learn all their names and differentiate them)
- this was the month were aunt got so mad at me (we were both stressed and we were both being bitches) and she didn't talk to me for like a good month till after hk (what an awkward time at home)

apr: 
- me trying to get shit together for spa final project / can i also say fab lab dude was like no this only for ync students but like i am literally taking a ync mod also the first laser on mirror was wrong might be my fault but lmao i made it work so its ok
- me trying to get shit together for all my other projects
- me trying to find job
- went hk after w13 madness - land of dimsum
- missed out on meeting ratana and honours lunch
- broke the lens on my dad's film compact camera gg
- climbing dragon back was ok, weather was ok, trying to find me a windbreaker days before was not (really liked the nike one but wtf at the price)
- disneyland!!!!!!! fkn proud of me for taking rollercoaster rides by myself when did my sister become a wuss??? / grizzly mountain was ok but rc car omg crazy
- took second videos in hk but have'nt actually made anything um
- cut my own hair cause exam stress and it was a mess because i am no professional

may:
- went back school just to take down my artwork (twice cause mirror was a bij)
- gender finals what a mess - i only did my readings after hk (don't be me)
- spent post-finals cleaning the house for raya and planning for vietnam and
- ramadan was a lil meh this year (where has my religiousity gone but also its been quite frustrating having mom breathe down my back on praying)
- hardly went out except when necessary
- donated my e-waste and then some (but i still have all my laptops??)
- bus stop in front of house was moved back because of construction ))):
- grad trip with tk baes / drama and draining but 6/10 would do again (maybe a seperate post reflecting on travelling with friends?)
- sapa / sho sho; cat ba / hue - guides were all great and people were all nice (except for that taxi driver in hanoi that cheated our money we dumb we sorry) // had 3 body massages on this trip and i never felt so rejuvenated on our holiday
- got back and fell sick lol hello fever and flu

jun:
- raya without my sister this year cause she's only coming back end of the month / was also sick so we didn't go visiting the first week which sux
- cut me hair am loving this length / got into clip on earrings / spent too much money on online shopping
- watched aladdin / will smith was gr8 as genie / having a shirtless aladdin would make things greater
- birthday celebration at swensens for free firehouse
- spent time with kim and gits
- searching for jobs but ????? no ????? reply

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