bobby is just pixels 

doing work (again) for DI and i just hope it's not a mistake 

while her entrepreneurial spirit is inspiring, her work ethics is just mind-boggling

(i understand but i also don't) 

like she had an idea of the outcome she wants to achieve, but like she's not ready????

am foreseeing doing things out of my job scope and tbh why did i take up her offer, my design skills are subpar and one note

on the job search front

it's not really going ok because i don't know what i want 

(ok i have some idea of what i want but like yknow)

my heart and head is not in sync and this indecisiveness of to apply or not to apply is wearing me down

i really don't want to let fear rule me and stop me from doing what i want to do

it does not help that family have some preconceived ideas about what i should be doing 

i don't know if i should put my heart above my head in making decisions - who even gave me the right to decide
it takes courage and tbh i dont think i have any

"give it time" they said

i know / i am 

i really don't know