FARZ (she/her)
27/SG
definitely not who you think i am
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"I have come to love myself, for who I am, for who I was, and for who I hope to become.”
- Joon |
Sunday, May 8, 2011
9:55 PM
not now but soon.
Day 22 — Someone you want to Hi mummy, i know I'm not the ideal daughter you wanted. You wanted one that was pretty, smart, obedient, feminine, thoughtful, honest, self-disciplined, mature and responsible but i'm not. I'm sorry for all those times that i lied to you and losing your trust. I'm sorry for not helping you around the house and for being so bitchy all the time. But even when i'm angry at you i still love you. Cause i know you'll be there even if the rest of the world isn't. Happy mothers day. Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Friday, April 15, 2011
5:57 PM
If only i knew how.
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression Fuck la i judge everybody so doesn't everybody? Ok so yes i judged the broadrick mats in bus 31 today. Y u so cool sia go smoke? Y u not alim tak pergi solat? Y u cakap about tetek and pantat? Y u cakap fuck you so loudly. Maybe my impression of you would be better if you didn't open your mouth but srsly step sial. Labels: 30 day challange
Saturday, April 9, 2011
8:30 AM
maybe we're torn
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
I win this hands down. I can't blame anybody for anything. I'm feeling so tuiqgtliuqgfg now and yet its just so hard, hard to tell anyone anything. Sometimes, i wished i listened to my heart instead of my head so that maybe instead of getting heartaches i would keep getting headaches. #sadlol i really am tired i wished i could really say 'i don't really care.' but deep down only my heart knows that i actually do. ok why do i keep feeling like this.
Head: Dear heart, i'm really sorry for breaking you. I'm sorry i didn't listen to you more often. I don't really mean to be so controling but i really don't mean to ignore your feeling. I just want to do the right thing. I don't really want you to follow your heart, give in to your feelings and not care about the consequences. I know i don't always make the best decisions and that i always regret them but trust me at that time it really felt like the right thing to do. Heart: I'm not ready to forgive you, so please stop trying to make me. Labels: 30 day challange, personal
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
10:21 PM
destroy what destroys you
Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind - good or bad (THIS. Ok so i think about everybody in my life on a daily basis ok #notcool My mind is such a vfuywfifwfjwhigh bitchy place to be uh and everyone that pesters my mind is bad cause all my mind wants is to be left alone. Ok so going to do this on people whom i worry a lot about.) S: you don't know this but everybody loves you they really do, so stop thinking you're alone or nobody cares and just please stop hurting yourself. I know life sux so much but please maybe it'll get better. C: uh i don't really like seeing you sad, you deserve to be happy so very much. you're such a strong, wonderful girl and you can make so many people happy. i know we're not that close but still, i just wished you would take care of yourself and not get injured so many times. Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Friday, March 18, 2011
1:59 PM
Cause in your eyes i'd like to stay
Day 18 - The person you wish you could be. I wish i could be somewhat perfect. I don't want to be anyone else. I just wish for a better me. Pretty, smart, funny, less awkward, strong, brave, honest. I wish to be the person that everyone can talk to... someone like her. And if i could be a guy, i would like to see how my life would be right now and how it would be like to be in love. Would my life be a whole hell lot better, would i get butterflies and think about that one girl 24/7. Even if i were a boy for one day, i just want to know what it could be like. Trying to forget someone you love, is like trying to remember someone you never knew.Labels: 30 day challange
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
5:42 PM
"I was never in love with someone else."
Day 17 - Someone from your childhood Hi haziq so you were the first person who realised that i was crying in kindergarten that day and because you asked me if i was ok made me cry even harder. And because of me you got in trouble with the teacher because the teacher thought that you bullied me. "i'm sorry." - thats what i really want to say to you each week now but i guess i really can't make the words come out right. You're still the same after 9 years - charming, funny, sweet- basically just you. And i hope you stay the same ♥ (i miss kindegarten and how we were friends with everyone and everyday was such a happy day) Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
8:41 PM
other people always let you down
Day 16 - Someone thats not in your state/country Dear S, can you come back this year pluhz so that we can have sleepovers everynight while i cram for my exams and then we can share secrets and not sleep. i have so much things to tell you, i'm crossing my fingers.Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Monday, February 21, 2011
5:31 PM
guess what, i don't care anymore
Day 15 - The person you miss the most Dear phosphorus* lol k no idea why i miss you but i can't lie you were such fun and now i don't really know. i wish you all the best like really. ok i don't remember anymore cause it hurts to remember stuff i don't really like want to. i miss your stupid face.sidenote: i like drinking juice it makes me so happy its like chocolate. Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Friday, February 18, 2011
9:34 PM
plese don't be in love with someone else
Day 14 - Someone you've drifted away from this is not even relevant cause i drift away from everybody sigh and its not even their fault. And i miss them all so bad. But now its all awkward #friendlessforlife ok if i ever figure out what to say to them i promise i'll write it all here with names and all i hope. friendship is a very fragile thing, like virginity, once you lose it, you'll never get it back. Sometimes friends become enemies, but whats worse is when they become strangers. -Hayley WilliamsAh gr8 so i am really sorry to everybody. Labels: 30 day challange
Sunday, February 13, 2011
8:46 AM
you can try.
Day 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you I don't expect you to forgive me for all the shit i put you through anyway. I'm sorry that i’ve let down in some way. I’m sorry if i wasn’t what you expected me to be, that i didn’t do my very best to keep our relationship intact. If I’ve disappointed you by not being what you want me to be, I’m sorry. Sorry to those who I’ve hurt too. Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Friday, February 11, 2011
10:03 PM
how do i choose between my head and my heart
Day 12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
so i try not to hate cause hate is bad (lolwhut) and yes i love everybody. But people hurt me and i hurt them too. And yes i wonder how my life would turn out if i didn't get hurt by you. But maybe then i won't even know the meaning of pain... or love. So thank you, thank you for making me stronger :-)
Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Thursday, February 10, 2011
5:12 PM
they won't love you like i do.
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to dear atok, i never really hear my dad talk about you which is kind of sad. Sometimes, i wonder about you, how you looked like, if you were scary or kind and if you ever saw me before you died. i'm your grand-daughter yet i don't know much about you :'( nobody ever tells me anything. Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
8:27 PM
Sometimes people find that it's just so hard just to say goodbye
Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet I'd like to meet my twenty one year old self and hug her and cry a lot and tell her that she had come a long way,or maybe me when i was ten and tell myself that you're in for a long shit way ahead and i need to is be strong. (so much love for myself ♥) Labels: 30 day challange
8:27 PM
save it for tomorrow
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Monday, February 7, 2011
9:57 PM
Please don't go.
Day 8 - Your favourite internet friend Thanks for listening and all the cyber hugs and highfives. Labels: 30 day challange
Thursday, February 3, 2011
10:08 PM
nothing better than you
 Day 7 - Your ex boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crushLabels: 30 day challange
7:37 PM
We're so close to something better left unknown
Day 6 - A stranger  Are we friends, or are we just strangers? Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
10:02 PM
i wish i just wish
 Day 5 - Your dream
My dream? I just want to be happy. I make wishes every minute of the day and even though i don't know if it'll ever come true but i'll continue hoping and wishing.
Labels: 30 day challange
Monday, January 31, 2011
5:50 PM
let the reason be love
Day 4 - Your sibling(or closest relative)
Dear sister, i really love you and i hope you get what you deserve, so maybe you're real bitchy and sometimes i don't really get you. But you're the best sister I could ever ask for (no matter how much i want a brother). maybe i should stop bothering you since your o's are like this year but fighting with you everyday is like going to the toilet to pee. It won't feel right if we don't fight. I'll always be there for you no matter what. I'm sorry if i hurt your feelings when we fight, its just that i speak before i think, please forgive me cause we r sisters4lyfe.
Labels: 30 day challange, to people
Thursday, January 27, 2011
6:38 PM
uneasy hearts weigh the most.
Day 3 - Your Parents
Dear parents, so maybe i don't show it but i really really love you. So maybe sometimes I make you all angry and do things I'm not suppose to do. And i know that you'll always be there no matter what. Hai mummy, i love you a lot and so maybe i make you angry like almost everyday and at the smallest things and i know that you're busy and that you don't print money. I just wish you would stop fighting with daddy so much and that you can understand why i'm like this. But i love you all the same, grey hair and all. Hai daddy, i wish you would talk to your children more, i wish i wasn't so afraid of talking to you i just wish you could you show me your love in other ways and everything. I know you're tired from working everyday, thats why i'm trying (ok not really) to study very hard. I really don't like seeing you fight with mummy, i'm tired of it. I juat wish you all were less tired and more happy.
Labels: 30 day challange, to people |