Why do i care so much?
Because you were the first person to make me feel special. You were always there for me no matter what. Even though i was annoying and a pain you still stuck by me. You made me feel wanted like i was actually important. You made me laugh and smile when i was feeling down. Your letters made me feel that you actually cared. But now i realised all along it was all about me. I guessed i didn't listen to your problems as much as you listened to my crap. If i could make it all right with you, i would be less self centered and listen to you. I promise. I'm sorry for doing things i should have never done to you, for saying things that hurt you, for being so clingy, for being an asshole. We never hugged maybe because i was smelly. And we never will. I break a little inside each time i see you. I just want us to go back to being friends and i guess that will never happen cause i am an anus.
I miss you pearlyn gan. I really do. I hope your life is good, please be happy because you are lovely and you have the most wonderful smile. I never do learn do I? People can't hurt you unless you let them.

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