"I have come to love myself, for who I am, for who I was, and for who I hope to become.”
- Joon |
Thursday, December 8, 2011
10:16 PM
fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat thats what i am and i ain't doing anything about it oh god going to die fat and alone fuck it i ain't fat i am obese fatass one day i'm going to die of diabetes maybe coronary heart disease hypertension nobody knows once a fatty always a fatty skin and bones thats what i want to be fucking skinny but why do i think that by being skinny it means being beautiful everybody's a fattist so skinny does mean you're beautiful i don't want to be the fattest one. i don't have a pretty face or a brain or a personality just fats and more fats. i've never had a guy and yet every other teenage girl has they're all so pretty and this makes me feel like i'm being left on the shelf they don't say it but i know it they all think i'm fat and they hate me i have no friends none who like me i close my mouth and refuse to talk cause i am boring and have no tales to tell refuse to bore you to death and i don't like how i sound at all it feels boring even if i speak nobody listens would rather listen and think than speak now. rather feel what you're feeling cause you're funny I'm not we're like opposite poles attracting each other maybe opposites do attract but nobody is attracted to me cause i'm not outstanding or anything like a manget that loses its power by being dropped too many times not strong enough just weak and fragile easily broken not worth it Labels: personal |