Sick of being sick and tired.
All the time.
swear that i am having panic attacks more often now.
perks of being sick: none at all.
ugh so cough + fever + sore throats + runny nose + headaches
= worst shit ever

so went to changi general hospital A&E
and sigh my money flew away
95 dollars
are you kidding me
)-:
Ok so i missed out on carnival day/national day creysssss
bet nobody even noticed i wasnt there l o l
love national day lah i love singapore i sing the national anthem ok
i say the pleldge and i mean it.
instead of studying for prelims/os im singing national day song
save me.

so tired. cant wait for raya omg ok.
all the kueh and more kueh yay kueh jut gonna sit by the table and eat all the kueh
and avoid eye contact with everybody
because people suck
ok i'm just gonna look at cats and pleasant children
ugh. still sore about that issue.
forgiveeee and forget forgive and forget forgive.

i know im an awful person
im trying
but helplessly failing
all the time
ok so save money to buy a dslr/polaroid films/presents

sigh miss the day we went for ne show when we were p5
all the red ok so red and yay funpack
and my mini panic attack when i saw jennifer + joel
and we were the first to go to the floating platform
first time being to a national day parade
miss the national day celebration in primary schools
where we would dance + sing to the national day theme song + community song
and then we got the singapore flag in our hand
sigh.

i miss being young awfully much
i dont want to grow up and face the future
i dont want more responsibilities
its hard being who i want to be
teenage years are hard
not old enough to be treated like an adult
but not young enough to be treated like a child

happy birthday norm
because you only get to be 15 once
enjoy it

sigh oral coming
malay first then english
hate conversation ok
sighhhhhhh especially malay
what if im marked down for not being able to speak malay despite being a malay
whyyyyyy
aiya be a koala bear lah

so need to clean room/study/do homework/study/get well

i need to get well soon because being sick is horrible
ok shall go pray

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