FARZ (she/her)
27/SG
definitely not who you think i am
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"I have come to love myself, for who I am, for who I was, and for who I hope to become.”
- Joon |
Sunday, December 8, 2013
10:25 PM
if music be the food of love, play on
FIESTA FANTASIA REVERIE
thank you trombones for making this journey amazing for me
one that was filled with laughter, smiles and happiness (maybe annoyance sometimes)
you all made my year in tj a whole lot better
from the endless scandals to awkward lunch dates to dinner to playing charades to 'sectionals'
to put up with my horrible tone and tonguing and personality and me in general is hard
and i thank the 55 people that helped made this concert a success
bringing me so much joy in the process
and even though tj cheer was a fail
even though my period decided to be a bitch and come in the morning
bringing along awful period cramps
i'm glad i pulled through (after 3 panadols from sheen huey love you)
thank you teachers for supporting us even though we're really annoying
thank you seniors for being so patient with us
thank you juniors for being so outgoing and fun and just amazing
thank you lin sheng for being the amazing fatherly conductor you are
thank you excos for being fucking amazing
thank you batchies for this amazing journey
i made a lot of new friends and gotten closer to others
even though im awkward and all but
i just love you all
(and i should probably stop with all this shipping people with people but
human interaction just make me go awwwww)
'say t
say tities
we are the breast
you better not press'
oh cleon oh.
Saturday, November 16, 2013
9:16 PM
shrooms
tj band tune in 2013 was fun
mushrooms (lihui, brenda, simin, cleon, justyne, jieling, junxin) you all were fun
maybe its cause we're fungi
thank you jl & j for making us high whoop whoop
first time in a year having the band room REALLY filled with people
first time feeling like it was almost back in tkgs band with four rows and everybody squeezing and sharing saliva bowls
first time in a year being a senior HAHA (even though you all don't feel like juniors)
first time in half a year syaz has a full saxaphone section :')
come to tj band okay
even though i don't like tj a whole lot
but it doesn't apply to tj band
so come
join the tj band family
feel the tj band magic
♡♡♡♡♡♡
(wow that was really cheesy HAHA)
(if we really had the same number of people who came for tune in to play for fiesta i wonder how we'll fit everybody on stage)
Thursday, November 7, 2013
9:28 PM
100% best teacher ever
  "Educating the mind without educating the heart is no education at all." - Aristotle"TJ 135 - the most dysfunctional PW group ever"(theres probably no need to find evidence to substantiate the above statement because i guess its pretty evident.) I guess this concludes the end of my pw journey but we have all really really really come a long way since march. We're probably the only group who only met up outside school where everybody was present for the first time for WR. I'm sorry for being such a horrible secretary but i tried my best. I'm absolutely thankful for the girls in my PW group (even when d made the horrible subject even more unbearable by being annoying) for helping keep my sanity intact, for being there for me at my weakest. Even though we're all pretty much really different, in all aspects, we've managed to make our differences work. You know how some things change, but other things remain the same. Absolutely fucking thankful that our class has the best project work tutor ever. Mr Sim, you're probably one of my favourite tutors in tj, and I thank you for being there despite all the bullshit in our pw group, for having confidence in me. From being the teacher we were all scared of to the teacher that laughed with us, thank you. OP IS OVER BITCHES GOOD BYE PW Labels: personal, to people, visuals
Saturday, November 2, 2013
6:45 PM
you're a penis
     
happy deepavali :-)
housewatching up the hill
met up with people i missed dearly
love at first sight with my true love (caleb)
had many papadum and some indian food
naturally awkward as hell
/edit 11:05pm/ fuck you pw i don't know how you fucking manage to make me cry every fucking time fuck you i'm almost done with you i'm fucking tired
Thursday, October 31, 2013
9:40 PM
i don't know what to say, i just really miss you
throwback to the days:
when i had short hair
when the bad hair days were (almost) everyday
when i made horrible fashion choices
when all my clothes were pink
when i refuse to smile with my teeth cause they were ugly
when i didn't know how to form a coherence sentence in malay
when you were the (second) person i looked forward to seeing during raya
when you were still alive
when you were always there for me
hi nenek,
i missed you
i probably never told you how much i love you for being there for me for the 14 years of my life or how (when i was younger and you healthier) you came to baba's house during the weekdays when everybody was at work and busy or how you used to sew my baju kurung or how you were so patient with me even though i was a naughty child by pretending that the dining table was a sea saw or how you always tried to initiate a conversation with me even though i was clueless at malay and gave you nods and single word replies and you tried your best but i didn't
i still remember the day that you passed away i remembered crying i remembered feeling hate towards my sister for not crying i remembered disliking my mom for being so apathetic i remembered the day you passed that morning i was going for malay class but dad stopped at the lift lobby and took the lift back up and i didn't hear what he said till we were at our door i cried
i still remember the day before you gone it was good friday - a public holiday it was good i remembered that i was wearing a dress it was the blue checkered one i went out with baba and mariah and kakak to have high tea at carousel i visited you in the evening still wearing that dress you were looking so frail and you didn't want to eat you ate a biscuit that was all and some water you were looking so tired i knew you had to go but i didn't know it was that soon
hi nenek
i love you
Friday, October 25, 2013
5:36 PM
say it loud & proud
"that's beautiful"
Dear Ms Glassman, I'm thankful to have you as my GP tutor. I came in to TJ thinking how much I would dread GP lessons so much because I don't have much....general knowledge. Despite all the readings you made us do with the package, the debate, the newspaper article, the current affair quiz, news article presentation, writing logs, essay outlines and what not you were a brilliant teacher.
Teachers are aplently but none are as brilliant as you. You made us feel that grades weren't that important for GP. You imparted to us skills that we would carry for a life time. To be able to critically think and see the world from multiple viewpoints, you taught us not to look at things at face value. And neither did you. You didn't judge us base on our academic capability. You were so nice making time for us whenever we needed consultations. Even though it gets a little frightening when your (beautiful) eyes stare deep into our soul, I know all you want is for us to try harder, to think harder.
Even though Mondays were the worst days to have double period gp in the afternoon, the 100 minute lesson seemed to pass by relatively fast. You introduced us to new things every lesson and we may not be the most responsive class ever but we can honestly say that we did learn. I don't know how else I can thank you, I don't know how else we can.
You've done so much for us and even though its the same people speaking up in class every lesson, you hardly get annoyed with us for being quiet. (You hardly get annoyed with me for being quiet).
You were more than a teacher, you were like a friend to us. I'll never forget the time you gave me a cookie for doing the current affair quiz. I'll never forget the time you asked me if I was okay when I was crying. I'll never forget all the times you showed us care and concern. I hope you know that we'll never forget you.
We may not be the best student, but you are somewhat our best teacher.
Thank you Ms Glassman. We'll really miss you a whole lot. GP won't be the same without you.
Love, a grateful student.
Labels: personal, to people, visuals
Friday, July 19, 2013
10:38 PM
hands in the air like we dont care.
        
racial harmony today and decided to wear the most unflattering baju kurung ever
and i dont even like baju kurung and i suffocated but yay love you guys for making me die (on a day where i lacked water)
i didn't want to wear it at all
yay guess which fatass has to exercise soon (me)
should probably close my mouth soon
tired as hell but never study k
Monday, July 8, 2013
11:06 PM
"can somebody press the button"
     1145 i left the house even though you told me to leave at 1130 1156 saw Mr Fi decked in purple (what's new) and texted you saying i'll be late 1159 ran to the mrt station from the bus interchange 1202 waiting for train at tampines and was trying to act all cool at the platform while attempting to take a picture of the purple fi. 1206 boarded the train while freaking out cause i was late 1214 still sweating on the train 1218 saw p on said train 1247 reached harbourfront and called you 1252 found golden village and tried to look for you guys in the long queue, walked around twice 1254 called you again and you told me to walk up the stairs 1255 "hi dork" 1301 you guys bought tickets to now you see me 1302 up the escalator to find a spot to camwhores literally laughing and being public nuisances 1309 wanted to disturb the couple outside by asking them to take a photo of us with k but it started to rain. 1320 been walking around the level trying to find a good camwhore spot (we tried the toilet even) 1322 decided to take outside and brave the rain and it turned out glamorously unglam and g even said "can somebody press the button!!!!1!" 1325 walked around looking for food settled on carls junior 1326 didn't have the heart to tell you guys it wasn't halal cause you guys had a movie to catch 1327 s literally ran to the empty seat shocking a guy; k and i just laughed 1329 camwhored with g's phone quite faily (don't like samsung guys cause i don't know???) 1333 ordered an oreo shake 1345 saw g's og mate (ok patrick was cuter than any tj guy i've ever seen?? and seriously ya not a lie) 1357 tempted to ask patrick to help us take photos butttt 1359 tried to find ways to have a group shot 1401 piggybacked k//successful group shot (i'd like to think so) 1403 asked guy to help take polaroid shots which turned out not rally pretty and blurry but good enough 1405 ran to gv 1406 group hug twice while you guys were late for the movies made plans for the next meet up 1415 train ride back to bedok with l 1459 bought starbucks to end the perfect day ever a day with the lovelys made me realise how much i actually love tkgs minus all the imperfections and even though i look totally horendous in all those polaroids and even though they were horribly taken and are super blur and all; feelings are real. LOVE U GUYS ALL SO MUCH YOU MADE ME LAUGH SO MUCH MORE HARDER THAN JC HAS IN LESS THAN TWO HOURS xx friends like you guys are for keeps can't wait to meet up with the rest and all (on a side note: i have small asian eyes?????so much for being malay) wayyy excited for school and elearning so much excitement in the air. #tk4lyfe #proudtkgian /edit on 9 July miss tk miss working at sr miss going to uk don't miss tj i know this is unhealthy honestly i could think of a million reasons why tj sucks but ok i shouldn't?? because i am in the school so wallowing in whatever pity i have is just gonna lower whats left of my self respect i try loving the school but honestly it doesn't give me any much reasons to do so. i mean tk/sr/uk was great cause of the people and the place..................... but tj is just (maybe its just me but really) i miss f real badly but he's probably back to school and not working anymore. oh god i miss him and his jimmy nuetron hair and his smell of breath mints and his eyes when they smile and his intense face when he worked as the barista for the first time. okay yay should stop just miss him the most. could honestly write a whole post about f (maybe) maybe i'll do it if i ever see him again which will be like one in a million chance (seeing how he lives like in woodlands and takes his diploma in malaysia) but sigh pumped up for ramadhan not so much for school till then Labels: because they are so perfect, personal, to people, visuals
Friday, June 28, 2013
1:53 AM
london part deux
Here's the part II to my trip to London but just with considerably less words. (I'm sorry for going overboard with the use of photo editing apps guys I truly am and I like white ok but horrible cropping but whatever bitches sorrz horrible quality but iphone camera better than my bb)
         (Paddington Tube Station was so pretty???? and they had m&s ok) 
(this was at Covent Garden//Man with Big Balls show
i'm sorry if you think im a creep now but #yolo and they were really cute)     (this was outside Harrods can you sense my tingles tingling + Harrod's food hall has beautiful food)  (Lake District)  (York)     
(hair was literally quite good that day)
  (because we da best sissies ever - are the coolest and always tired and hungry)    wah london got chiobu sia (me duh) (it was here where tourists asked me to take pictures of them//first time ok!!!! cause it was always my sister who got approached instead) 
(home for the last few nights in london sigh so pretts)
 
(Musical night WHOO
boys who do ballet attractiveness level: infinite?????
no but really i swooned when the older Billy came out)
(haze really like non existent when i came back but air still stinked that day)
and when we were on the plane to dubai there was this cute guy sitting in front of me and i nearly died okay but AHHHHH (i think it is fate cause he had almost the same bag as me//he watched Finding Nemo ok and i swear he was not a child but literally a teen or older)
now that im back in singapore its really hot even with the air con on and all the guys are like meh i'm sorry HAHA luv u guys. edited/ went to TP on wednesday to celebrate S's birthday with A (because N still in malaysia sighs that girl always ditch people y know) waited for A and H before we decided to eat the cold pizza HAHA. hearing them talk about their poly life and how they got A's in tests made me literally proud of them and bought D her birthday present as well and S said something that really struck me (well it is a fact but yah i'm just uncomfortable around boys and people i'm not close too i'm like an onion - please peel me away not literally) I awfully missed tk people a whole bloody lot??? Its like theres no one like them in TJ (ok mainly because there's no tkgians in my class) but yes seriously being with the tk girls is a whole lot of fun. its different. i hope i can go out on youth day to see the girls or i will literally cry?? I need my daily dose of k cause she is hilarious and funny.
i'm like a sloth i just sleep and breathe.
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