er hello, I should probably be asleep in anticipation for my 8am lecture tomorrow but I'd just like to document my first day of school shenanigans.

I should not complain, because I chose the school, and I will learn to grow to accept and love the school and the sheer amount of people, but first things first - first day sucks.

I dropped my initial plan of taking a 2 hour bus ride to KRT because it was raining and I was lazy and I was scared I was late for my first day - on hindsight, I probably should have taken the bus since I absolutely abhor being in a confined area surrounded by many many many people: the shuttle bus ride was not pleasant. (I REALLY DONT LIKE BEING IN CLOSE BODILY CONTACT WITH PEOPLE LIKE PLEASE I NEED TO BREATHE GUYS)

But yes I alighted at Central Library for god knows what reason (ah yes to purchase my course pack), and it was with sheer displeasure that i handed three crisp fiver dollar notes over for a thick booklet that proved to be a major burden on my shoulders. Also the coop was full of people and there were snaking queues for printing and textbook purchases and I was like 'hell no'

so i got out of there and went to find J - thank god for her honestly?? I don't know what I would do without her at all today????? from being there before my lecture started and being there when my lecture ended to printing stuff with me at the CLB and having llaollao with me because I was hungry???? thank you for being the weird same old you, but now I get to ship you with guys in your life that you mention to me :') also shout out to w for alighting at one north just to see me, i miss you so much and you are going to achieve so much more usp scholar please enjoy all the welcome tea because free food and why are you not in fass!!!!!!

BUT FIRST LET ME PUT IT OUT THERE THAT I WAS EARLY FOR SCHOOL TODAY so I think I deserve a standing ovation.

okay so uh lecture was fine i guess, I guess when you go to university, lecturers don't really care about how the slides look aesthetically, because the contents the most important bit (but i really do miss ms j and mr han because they were great/i guess you only begin to appreciate the finer things in life once they're gone)

tbh why am I in university, I am a wreck and terrible with people and interaction and just a ball of nerves and anxiety, probably nobody wants to be my friend cause I don't smile at you or say hi (more like bye, please find the exit door and get out of my life)

There's just too many people ah and like I don't like people (or maybe its my don't like people day????)

things are changing way too fast and I am too slow

whoever said 'slow and steady wins the race' obviously never tried living life in the fast lane

sigh

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